On 8/2 I posted about my daughter's mission on earth, & I've said things about knowing mine. I need to make some things clear here. What we're "supposed" to do on earth & our mission are 2 different things. What we're "supposed" to do is live life the best we can, to the fullest degree. God hopes that we will come through the "trials" of life with triumph, that we will learn to enjoy all the beauty, glory, love, & wonder of life & creation. He absolutely does not test us, refine us, train us or judge us. "He'll only give you as much as you can handle" is a terrible misstatement, misunderstanding of God. He doesn't give you any of it. A more accurate statement is that if you aren't able to handle all you're encountering in your life at any one time, He provides help. But He hasn't given you the adversity that leads to the need for help. He doesn't cause sickness or injuries, natural (they're called "natural" for a reason!) disasters, etc. He didn't create a devil or send one to tempt us. Besides helping us when we need Him, He's also given us the wonderful ability to learn from our mistakes & to take adversity & use it to learn & grow. That's different than giving us problems. It means He gave us the ability to redeem our more uncomfortable experiences. There's a huge difference!
His goal is not for us to do that - the ability to do so is a gift He gave us as part of Creation. Animals don't have that same ability. They can learn to avoid behaviors & situations that lead to distress but they're unable to learn more about themselves & the world from it. They can't use their experiences to connect to God or others of their kind like we can. They don't learn about their own strength & abilities from learning the rules of survival. He hopes that we will learn all these things & more. He hopes for the best for us, that we will avail ourselves of all the wonders He created, & those He designed in each of us. We each were created to EXPERIENCE LIFE. He hopes that we do that to the fullest degree. But He gave each of us free will, so it's all up to us & there's no penalty for not doing it. We simply miss out on some things.
As far as mission, we're the ones who choose it. It's not a "should," it's what we each chose for ourselves. Some of us realize this during our lifetime & have chosen to make that mission the center of our life. I don't believe you would fully realize it & then make another choice at that point, since it was your original choice. At times during my life I had an intuition that this was the way things are - that we chose the circumstances of our birth, that there was something I was "supposed" to be doing, a reason I was created. I'm not sure I thought I chose my own mission, but inside me I had a restlessness at times, an urge to be doing what I was "meant" to do. At those times, I wasn't ready. I was young - first in high school (don't remember having that feeling prior), then more vivid as a young adult raising my children, & various brief periods since. Until recently, I also didn't understand that it wasn't that I was "supposed" to do something on earth, but that I'd set a mission for myself & was feeling the urge to be doing it. Nearly a year ago, when it was time to entirely reinvent a way of life for myself, I realized it was my best opportunity to be about my own business finally, to do what I want to do with my life. I talk about working for God these days & I do. My chosen mission is, in part & in simplest terms, to be one of God's helpers here on earth.
The consequences of not doing this would be to continue in vague dissatisfaction & restlessness. Off & on for many years I've felt a deep yearning I couldn't identify. I also had many gifts & talents I was under utilizing & that was frustrating & added to my dissatisfaction in/with my life. I had pieces of myself that never quite seemed to fit together or make sense. I was essentially a whole person, but compartmentalized. Now I'm becoming integrated within myself, balanced, fulfilled, beginning to live a whole & balanced life. My life is full of work that suits me, energizes me, that I enjoy. It's work but it's not. I use my talents now to pursue my life & my work, rather than relegating them to hobbies that get neglected so I can make a living. Some of my talents are of the creative nature, & creativity for me is a form of play so my work is also some of my play. (Which means I'm waiting with awe to see what pure play becomes!) My work is my mission, therefore my heart's desire. It of course uses my skills so fulfills all of me, uses all aspects of my being. It's varied, fluid, exciting, so my work is now my adventure. When we are working our chosen mission, it unfolds as we go along, so we're constantly learning & growing, another aspect of adventure. Because of all this, I was led to change one of my "I Am" statements. Instead of affirming myself as a time-manager, I'm affirming myself as a priority manager. That more truly fits my character & goals, & I find it totally exciting that my life is now about finding & living that perfect fit.
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Thursday, August 4, 2011
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
This Too Shall Pass - Part II (read part I first of course - published out of order)
When you learn to take things in stride as they happen & not try to force situations like I used to, it transforms your life. I used to stress until I figured out how I could solve something like that guy procrastinating about the car. I tried to put myself in control of every situation so I could get the outcome I needed or wanted. I was so very type A. Now I know that things happen for a reason, or because we're interacting with other humans. I look for the reason when appropriate but I don't stress over that either.
Last night I drove over an hour to Pittsburgh for a guided meditation & found no one there. For the second time it had been canceled & the place holding it didn't notify me. I wondered why it ended up that way & someone else was indignant on my behalf but I really don't care. It was a lovely evening, I still met a new person I was scheduled to meet, bought the absolutely exquisite (as I just knew it would be) bottle of lavender essential oil she'd brought straight from the lavender farm in Oregon on a recent trip. (Lately I'm meeting people connected to lavender. We introduced ourselves to each other through email while she was on her trip, I mentioned my products, she offered to purchase a bottle of their oil for me while there. She's someone a friend of mine met & we both do energy work so he gave me her contact information.) I'm not upset that I drove all the way down there, paid for the gas when money is tight right now, or that they let me down a second time. I'm not spending any more time looking for a reason. I gave it a passing thought last night, thought about what a lovely evening it was, & that was it. If there's a reason, a lesson other than call them before I drive out there again rather than assuming they'll contact if they cancel, it will be revealed without me dwelling. I didn't come up with the tow idea by dwelling. Because I wasn't stressing, the idea "just came to me." Remember I journal everything these days. Eventually I won't put as much time into journaling but it's how I keep myself company & process my thoughts, feelings, experiences, explore my lessons.
Most things eventually resolve themselves one way or another when you're in the flow. I wasn't in the flow when I was trying to control everything myself. Then you're trying to force things, which puts you more in the position of rowing upstream. I used to paddle a canoe & can tell you how hard that can be! When you're in the flow of things what you're doing is allowing things to transpire rather than trying to control & manage when & how. We often need to take some action & we need to follow through, but we don't need to micromanage them. When you aren't trying to control everything, others usually eventually step up & do what they're supposed to do on their own. The guy finally called me about the car. The bank contacted the company that put through a second charge on my debit card for a single order, & reversed the charge immediately so there was no overdraft. One call to the bank instead of the company, & it was over just like that. When you don't stress it's easier to see the easiest solution, most direct & effective action you can take to quickly resolve a situation. So I don't end up with a bunch of big things to do anymore because I don't make them big in my head. That ends up allowing me to think clearly & without stress & come up with those direct, simple, effective single actions. It's truly simplified my life, which makes it much easier to handle things when they arise & before they become a true problem. Then it's a spiral because the more you do it the more manageable everything seems & therefore becomes, & there becomes less to manage. I love my life!
Last night I drove over an hour to Pittsburgh for a guided meditation & found no one there. For the second time it had been canceled & the place holding it didn't notify me. I wondered why it ended up that way & someone else was indignant on my behalf but I really don't care. It was a lovely evening, I still met a new person I was scheduled to meet, bought the absolutely exquisite (as I just knew it would be) bottle of lavender essential oil she'd brought straight from the lavender farm in Oregon on a recent trip. (Lately I'm meeting people connected to lavender. We introduced ourselves to each other through email while she was on her trip, I mentioned my products, she offered to purchase a bottle of their oil for me while there. She's someone a friend of mine met & we both do energy work so he gave me her contact information.) I'm not upset that I drove all the way down there, paid for the gas when money is tight right now, or that they let me down a second time. I'm not spending any more time looking for a reason. I gave it a passing thought last night, thought about what a lovely evening it was, & that was it. If there's a reason, a lesson other than call them before I drive out there again rather than assuming they'll contact if they cancel, it will be revealed without me dwelling. I didn't come up with the tow idea by dwelling. Because I wasn't stressing, the idea "just came to me." Remember I journal everything these days. Eventually I won't put as much time into journaling but it's how I keep myself company & process my thoughts, feelings, experiences, explore my lessons.
Most things eventually resolve themselves one way or another when you're in the flow. I wasn't in the flow when I was trying to control everything myself. Then you're trying to force things, which puts you more in the position of rowing upstream. I used to paddle a canoe & can tell you how hard that can be! When you're in the flow of things what you're doing is allowing things to transpire rather than trying to control & manage when & how. We often need to take some action & we need to follow through, but we don't need to micromanage them. When you aren't trying to control everything, others usually eventually step up & do what they're supposed to do on their own. The guy finally called me about the car. The bank contacted the company that put through a second charge on my debit card for a single order, & reversed the charge immediately so there was no overdraft. One call to the bank instead of the company, & it was over just like that. When you don't stress it's easier to see the easiest solution, most direct & effective action you can take to quickly resolve a situation. So I don't end up with a bunch of big things to do anymore because I don't make them big in my head. That ends up allowing me to think clearly & without stress & come up with those direct, simple, effective single actions. It's truly simplified my life, which makes it much easier to handle things when they arise & before they become a true problem. Then it's a spiral because the more you do it the more manageable everything seems & therefore becomes, & there becomes less to manage. I love my life!
This Too Shall Pass - Part I of II today
I used to be very type A. People who only know me recently would probably have a lot of trouble picturing that. For awhile I described myself as type D, so very laid back when I lived on the farm outside of Hagerstown. It was a joke. Now I'm probably a type A/B, in reality. Or a B. I can get serious & get things done when I need to & I have drive, but I seldom get flustered about anything. I started the day yesterday by having my energy disturbed by frustration with someone who was going to buy the extra car. I can only control my own actions, not what others do. I can't control it when someone says they'll do something & they don't, no matter how it may affect me & my needs.
What I can do is control my reactions & then my actions. I end up thinking things through & coming up with solutions. The guy called this morning & said he'd be here by 1:00 p.m. & at that time I thought I had to leave the house with the check by 3:00 p.m. But I'd already thought of a solution the night before - have AAA tow the car to his shop since the problem was him making the time to get out here to tow it & therefore paying me. He started to assure me he'd be here, I told him of my tow idea, & in the end he said to be safe, do that. And AAA ended up sending him out here for the tow, so I didn't have to go out to him for the check. It was all over by 1:30 p.m. & I watched a piece of my old life being towed away. That was interesting in itself. I felt like a piece of me was leaving, & I never liked driving that car, but had spent some nice time as a passenger. As always, I pay attention to my feelings because something like that shows healing taking place or needing to. I also pay attention to the really great feelings, & that feeds my attitude of gratitude & is a source of pure enjoyment. But I no longer stuff any discomfort or just let it pass. I deal with it at the time or file it near the front of my mind to explore & learn from, handle & heal ASAP. That's why I'm receiving pieces of emotional healing within about 24-30 hours, often less.
When I was type A I felt like I was always in crisis management. I always had a pile of things to address that were outside my comfort zone, problems to solve. Just when I'd get them cleared up, more would arise before I could take a real breather. It's true that I had more responsibilities back then - full time job, was a single parent. But a lot of the difference is my attitude & handling. I use that great planner I mentioned a few months ago & assign the nasties to certain days & weeks & thus manage them, get them off my mind entirely. That's such a whole new one for me - a clear mind! I used to keep it all in my head all the time, although I'm a great list maker (ask my daughter). But I had multiple lists that were as bad as no list. They were all over, a burden of things I considered important & didn't do. I simply don't handle that well. I had my today list, my now list, my this week list, my eventually list. I had some things crossed off each list & added on until they were a mess. I'd try to carry things from one list to another when I didn't get it all done... And I never really had any peace, couldn't really relax & take time for myself when needed, had trouble going to sleep at night, because I was aware of what still needed to be done & had the feeling I was forgetting something.
Having a truly great planner solved all that. It's all in the planner rather than my head. This particular planner, from plannerpad.com, allows you to prioritize in the easiest, least "should" way. I truly recommend it to all of you. I can't tell you how it's freed me! I've also learned over the years to let go. Not every great suggestion you read in a magazine is something you need to eventually force yourself to do, so there's no such thing as an "eventually" category for me. I'm never going to take photos of everything I own & put it in a fireproof place. You can, I'm not. I'm never going to put those family photos in albums. I've finally let go of those "shoulds." Years ago someone shared a great perspective with me. How much is (fill in an action) going to matter a year from now, 10 years from now, when you die? Most "shoulds" aren't really, don't truly matter so being honest about your own priorities & setting your own boundaries with "shoulds" is one of the most freeing things we can learn to do for ourselves. Part of "this too shall pass" is deciding what's truly important vs. what only seems important at the moment.
What I can do is control my reactions & then my actions. I end up thinking things through & coming up with solutions. The guy called this morning & said he'd be here by 1:00 p.m. & at that time I thought I had to leave the house with the check by 3:00 p.m. But I'd already thought of a solution the night before - have AAA tow the car to his shop since the problem was him making the time to get out here to tow it & therefore paying me. He started to assure me he'd be here, I told him of my tow idea, & in the end he said to be safe, do that. And AAA ended up sending him out here for the tow, so I didn't have to go out to him for the check. It was all over by 1:30 p.m. & I watched a piece of my old life being towed away. That was interesting in itself. I felt like a piece of me was leaving, & I never liked driving that car, but had spent some nice time as a passenger. As always, I pay attention to my feelings because something like that shows healing taking place or needing to. I also pay attention to the really great feelings, & that feeds my attitude of gratitude & is a source of pure enjoyment. But I no longer stuff any discomfort or just let it pass. I deal with it at the time or file it near the front of my mind to explore & learn from, handle & heal ASAP. That's why I'm receiving pieces of emotional healing within about 24-30 hours, often less.
When I was type A I felt like I was always in crisis management. I always had a pile of things to address that were outside my comfort zone, problems to solve. Just when I'd get them cleared up, more would arise before I could take a real breather. It's true that I had more responsibilities back then - full time job, was a single parent. But a lot of the difference is my attitude & handling. I use that great planner I mentioned a few months ago & assign the nasties to certain days & weeks & thus manage them, get them off my mind entirely. That's such a whole new one for me - a clear mind! I used to keep it all in my head all the time, although I'm a great list maker (ask my daughter). But I had multiple lists that were as bad as no list. They were all over, a burden of things I considered important & didn't do. I simply don't handle that well. I had my today list, my now list, my this week list, my eventually list. I had some things crossed off each list & added on until they were a mess. I'd try to carry things from one list to another when I didn't get it all done... And I never really had any peace, couldn't really relax & take time for myself when needed, had trouble going to sleep at night, because I was aware of what still needed to be done & had the feeling I was forgetting something.
Having a truly great planner solved all that. It's all in the planner rather than my head. This particular planner, from plannerpad.com, allows you to prioritize in the easiest, least "should" way. I truly recommend it to all of you. I can't tell you how it's freed me! I've also learned over the years to let go. Not every great suggestion you read in a magazine is something you need to eventually force yourself to do, so there's no such thing as an "eventually" category for me. I'm never going to take photos of everything I own & put it in a fireproof place. You can, I'm not. I'm never going to put those family photos in albums. I've finally let go of those "shoulds." Years ago someone shared a great perspective with me. How much is (fill in an action) going to matter a year from now, 10 years from now, when you die? Most "shoulds" aren't really, don't truly matter so being honest about your own priorities & setting your own boundaries with "shoulds" is one of the most freeing things we can learn to do for ourselves. Part of "this too shall pass" is deciding what's truly important vs. what only seems important at the moment.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
My Own Personal Angel - Part I
I'm so excited! I have my own personal angel & her name is Jessica Lyn. Now, I know she's not an angel in the truest sense - they are celestial beings that have never been human. They don't dwell on earth in human bodies, & hers is definitely human. I should know, since I gave birth to her!
On April 30, 2011 I had a life changing psychic reading. I was put in touch with my main guardian angel & some of my guides. I was told about past lives & part of what my mission is on earth. It was the knowledge I needed at that point, exactly what I'd asked for, had been seeking. It was time, I was ready. Since then I've had very few bad days, where my energy is negative or askew. Around mid April I had a bad week & my daughter came & really helped. She lives in Maryland, about 6 hours away & has a husband & a job so we don't get to see each other as often as we'd like.
Nowadays I seldom have even a portion of a bad day, much less a week. That all changed on April 30. I've been growing so rapidly since then, in my spiritual life & healing. But today (July 24 actually - I've got a full week of blogs already "in the can" that I need to post before this one) my energy was disturbed & I was working to get back on track. The flow of abundance is coming & I've had every assurance & I totally believe it. But today the guy who was going to buy my car reneged for the 3rd day in a row & wasn't even answering his phone & I really need the money by 3 p.m. tomorrow or I'm going to have to do a lot of scrambling & cancel all my plans for the week - meeting new energy workers & a guided meditation. I've got the power company to pay... Then one of my cats was going wild because I was preoccupied when she wanted attention, & she jumped on my back after pouncing on my computer keyboard... For a minute I wanted to get out of here for awhile & just get away. You know what I mean. Then I started feeling overwhelmed, like I can't get anything accomplished & I'm all alone & it's too much for one person... You know what happens when one big thing like money starts nagging at you, & suddenly everything builds up & starts to push you over the edge.
Normally I take it all in stride, no matter what that cat does, just do one thing at a time instead of letting myself feel overwhelmed, etc. And I knew it was all me, & that I could clear my energy & get back on track. So I called on a goddess from the Doreen Virtue card pulled for me yesterday, Greencara, who tells you to delegate & that you aren't in it alone. I delegated the car sale & started talking out loud to her about what I was feeling & that I knew it wasn't true that I'm all alone, just that I was venting & I really needed help right now. About 5 minutes later my daughter pulled into my driveway, a totally surprise visit! That's when I realized she's definitely my angel. She'd made a trip to Ohio to deliver a relative's son home since she knew that in addition to that favor, it would give her a chance to pay a surprise visit on me! She just had a couple of hours, but wanted to know how she could help me, & had a great suggestion. With that, she helped me set up a Facebook page for this business with a link for this blog, to help me reach a wider audience with these words. As I've said before, computer work is not my skill, & it was much easier on both of us for her to just walk me through it in person, including specifics she'd obtained from a friend for me about paypal for my business. She's so very busy herself & I am so very blessed that she's taken her time to help me with my business in this way. She's been very supportive & helpful with it the whole time.
On April 30, 2011 I had a life changing psychic reading. I was put in touch with my main guardian angel & some of my guides. I was told about past lives & part of what my mission is on earth. It was the knowledge I needed at that point, exactly what I'd asked for, had been seeking. It was time, I was ready. Since then I've had very few bad days, where my energy is negative or askew. Around mid April I had a bad week & my daughter came & really helped. She lives in Maryland, about 6 hours away & has a husband & a job so we don't get to see each other as often as we'd like.
Nowadays I seldom have even a portion of a bad day, much less a week. That all changed on April 30. I've been growing so rapidly since then, in my spiritual life & healing. But today (July 24 actually - I've got a full week of blogs already "in the can" that I need to post before this one) my energy was disturbed & I was working to get back on track. The flow of abundance is coming & I've had every assurance & I totally believe it. But today the guy who was going to buy my car reneged for the 3rd day in a row & wasn't even answering his phone & I really need the money by 3 p.m. tomorrow or I'm going to have to do a lot of scrambling & cancel all my plans for the week - meeting new energy workers & a guided meditation. I've got the power company to pay... Then one of my cats was going wild because I was preoccupied when she wanted attention, & she jumped on my back after pouncing on my computer keyboard... For a minute I wanted to get out of here for awhile & just get away. You know what I mean. Then I started feeling overwhelmed, like I can't get anything accomplished & I'm all alone & it's too much for one person... You know what happens when one big thing like money starts nagging at you, & suddenly everything builds up & starts to push you over the edge.
Normally I take it all in stride, no matter what that cat does, just do one thing at a time instead of letting myself feel overwhelmed, etc. And I knew it was all me, & that I could clear my energy & get back on track. So I called on a goddess from the Doreen Virtue card pulled for me yesterday, Greencara, who tells you to delegate & that you aren't in it alone. I delegated the car sale & started talking out loud to her about what I was feeling & that I knew it wasn't true that I'm all alone, just that I was venting & I really needed help right now. About 5 minutes later my daughter pulled into my driveway, a totally surprise visit! That's when I realized she's definitely my angel. She'd made a trip to Ohio to deliver a relative's son home since she knew that in addition to that favor, it would give her a chance to pay a surprise visit on me! She just had a couple of hours, but wanted to know how she could help me, & had a great suggestion. With that, she helped me set up a Facebook page for this business with a link for this blog, to help me reach a wider audience with these words. As I've said before, computer work is not my skill, & it was much easier on both of us for her to just walk me through it in person, including specifics she'd obtained from a friend for me about paypal for my business. She's so very busy herself & I am so very blessed that she's taken her time to help me with my business in this way. She's been very supportive & helpful with it the whole time.
My Own Personal Angel - Part II
After she helped me with Facebook, I did a brief Reiki session on her, then again suggested that she become attuned, to be a Reiki practitioner. I received the message awhile back that it was a needed step in her life, for spiritual growth, personal healing, & fertility. I've passed on the message each time it's been received but not bugged her about it. That's the wrong thing to do with anyone, & especially when it comes to spiritual matters. So I've only delivered the message, & it was just a few times. Each time she listened openly, said she'd pray on it. I of course wondered why she wasn't receiving the go-ahead since I was receiving the messages that she should, but never said anything like that.
Recently I heard my Reiki Master talking to someone else about giving a Master class soon, & she mentioned my name as one who wants to take it. At that point the message I got was then I'd be able to attune my daughter. So I said something today about becoming a Master soon, & that I'd be able to do attunements. At that moment she got the message that she'd been waiting for, because God was waiting until she could be attuned by me. At the same time I received the message stronger than before, that I'm to attune her. This will strengthen our bond even more & add a layer. So I was talking with her about it when God had more to say to me about that. One minute I was in conversation with her & then I was saying, "Oh, ok. Yeah." or whatever my response was as I was receiving. She took it in stride. I was being told that I'm to attune her for that extra bond that is between the Reiki Master & the student, because we've got similar (but different) missions here on earth & will be working together on some of it. We'll be doing some of the same things, & each some different things, but that link will be a key link.
It was another "beyond my wildest dreams" moment, on a day that started with a potential bank overdraft & much frustration, one of my first bad days in awhile. I so want my children to be on this spiritual journey & awakening too, & pray twice a day for them & their spouses. I wanted my daughter to follow in my footsteps along my Reiki path. At first I didn't say anything because I wanted to be sure I was delivering true messages rather than taking my desire for a message. I never dreamed that her path could overlap mine to the point of doing spiritual/God's work together! And remember, this is the daughter who suffered through my flawed parenting before I remembered the abuse I endured as I child & broke through to my true parenting skills. But she has really come into her own at a much earlier age than I did. Her gifts & talents are emerging & I'm seeing that she has been given many of the same gifts of the Spirit & talents as I have, so no wonder she's to do similar work. I was already so looking forward to more & more of the life of working for God, wanting to do more & more of it. Now I'm bouncing off the walls again with anticipation of the added excitement of watching my daughter & working with her!!!
Recently I heard my Reiki Master talking to someone else about giving a Master class soon, & she mentioned my name as one who wants to take it. At that point the message I got was then I'd be able to attune my daughter. So I said something today about becoming a Master soon, & that I'd be able to do attunements. At that moment she got the message that she'd been waiting for, because God was waiting until she could be attuned by me. At the same time I received the message stronger than before, that I'm to attune her. This will strengthen our bond even more & add a layer. So I was talking with her about it when God had more to say to me about that. One minute I was in conversation with her & then I was saying, "Oh, ok. Yeah." or whatever my response was as I was receiving. She took it in stride. I was being told that I'm to attune her for that extra bond that is between the Reiki Master & the student, because we've got similar (but different) missions here on earth & will be working together on some of it. We'll be doing some of the same things, & each some different things, but that link will be a key link.
It was another "beyond my wildest dreams" moment, on a day that started with a potential bank overdraft & much frustration, one of my first bad days in awhile. I so want my children to be on this spiritual journey & awakening too, & pray twice a day for them & their spouses. I wanted my daughter to follow in my footsteps along my Reiki path. At first I didn't say anything because I wanted to be sure I was delivering true messages rather than taking my desire for a message. I never dreamed that her path could overlap mine to the point of doing spiritual/God's work together! And remember, this is the daughter who suffered through my flawed parenting before I remembered the abuse I endured as I child & broke through to my true parenting skills. But she has really come into her own at a much earlier age than I did. Her gifts & talents are emerging & I'm seeing that she has been given many of the same gifts of the Spirit & talents as I have, so no wonder she's to do similar work. I was already so looking forward to more & more of the life of working for God, wanting to do more & more of it. Now I'm bouncing off the walls again with anticipation of the added excitement of watching my daughter & working with her!!!
Monday, August 1, 2011
The Power of "I AM" - Part I
I've spoken recently on the power of intent. I've known about it for years now, studied it as part of trying to achieve business success. I've read some different books on it, & I've mentioned Mike Dooley's CD/DVD on it & the tut.com messages from the Universe. But you don't know what you don't know until you learn it. I'm a lifelong learner & I recommend that to anyone who doesn't have a perfect life. Study the things you're interested in, study the things that can bring you what you need. Be a student of the Universe. So, last week I had a HUGE DUH experience! When you study multiple sources & talk with people about the things that interest you, you receive the same messages in different words & forms. Everyone learns differently, & what you read or hear from one can "speak" to you more than another. And so I got the best lesson of all on intent.
I have known for as long as I can remember that God is the great I Am, & He is our Creator. Nearly a year ago someone had to point out to me that our creativity comes from our Creator. DUH! How many times have I used a form of the word creativity & never saw that. This time was an even bigger duh. I was talking with a woman & she talked about her husband's negative statements, then imparted this. Every time you say "I am" you are creating the reality because I AM is the phrase of the Creator. This makes those 2 little words & everything that follows into the most powerful verbal force of creation possible.
This means most of us are going around creating exactly what we don't want without ever realizing it. We use "I am" sentences all the time without thinking. If you say "I am tired," "I am a procrastinator," "I am poor," "I am too weak," you're creating & perpetuating just that. Even if you're saying, "I'm" instead of the formal "I am" it means the same thing. I'd have to get clarification on whether it carries the same power, but I wouldn't chance it. Why do it at all? Why continue to utter negative words in relation to your self?
What about acknowledging your self, your current feelings? Part of healing & moving forward is not stuffing the negatives we feel. That leads to dis-ease. What I've started doing since that conversation is changing my language to reflect that whatever negative I'm experiencing that I feel the need to acknowledge, is in the moment only. I acknowledge it to validate self & take positive action. The validation of self is especially important for me because during the victim portion of my life my personal experience of events & actions toward me was negated & twisted by my abusers. It made me into a poor keeper of personal boundaries. I didn't even have boundaries against self abuse. I'd overdo it when working, for example, & betray my body or self in various ways that I won't go into. So I will acknowledge to myself if I'm feeling angry, sad, tired, sick, etc. I've changed to saying things like, "Right now I'm experiencing low energy." The uses of "right now" & "experiencing," especially the word "experiencing" are very defining. Instead of saying that I am something, I've said I'm experiencing something. Big difference. When I acknowledge the experience of low energy, I validate what my body is registering, & bring it to the front of my attention so I can take positive action to change the temporary situation. I try to determine why - do I need rest, more fluids, better or longer sleep at night - then take what action I can at the moment to overcome whatever it is.
I have known for as long as I can remember that God is the great I Am, & He is our Creator. Nearly a year ago someone had to point out to me that our creativity comes from our Creator. DUH! How many times have I used a form of the word creativity & never saw that. This time was an even bigger duh. I was talking with a woman & she talked about her husband's negative statements, then imparted this. Every time you say "I am" you are creating the reality because I AM is the phrase of the Creator. This makes those 2 little words & everything that follows into the most powerful verbal force of creation possible.
This means most of us are going around creating exactly what we don't want without ever realizing it. We use "I am" sentences all the time without thinking. If you say "I am tired," "I am a procrastinator," "I am poor," "I am too weak," you're creating & perpetuating just that. Even if you're saying, "I'm" instead of the formal "I am" it means the same thing. I'd have to get clarification on whether it carries the same power, but I wouldn't chance it. Why do it at all? Why continue to utter negative words in relation to your self?
What about acknowledging your self, your current feelings? Part of healing & moving forward is not stuffing the negatives we feel. That leads to dis-ease. What I've started doing since that conversation is changing my language to reflect that whatever negative I'm experiencing that I feel the need to acknowledge, is in the moment only. I acknowledge it to validate self & take positive action. The validation of self is especially important for me because during the victim portion of my life my personal experience of events & actions toward me was negated & twisted by my abusers. It made me into a poor keeper of personal boundaries. I didn't even have boundaries against self abuse. I'd overdo it when working, for example, & betray my body or self in various ways that I won't go into. So I will acknowledge to myself if I'm feeling angry, sad, tired, sick, etc. I've changed to saying things like, "Right now I'm experiencing low energy." The uses of "right now" & "experiencing," especially the word "experiencing" are very defining. Instead of saying that I am something, I've said I'm experiencing something. Big difference. When I acknowledge the experience of low energy, I validate what my body is registering, & bring it to the front of my attention so I can take positive action to change the temporary situation. I try to determine why - do I need rest, more fluids, better or longer sleep at night - then take what action I can at the moment to overcome whatever it is.
The Power of "I AM" - Part II
The other step I've taken is to write positive affirmations, again, something that's taken on new meaning. I've heard for years about doing that too - most of my adult life. Usually I haven't done it, didn't know what to write. Now I have. I took my time doing it but it was worth the time & thought. Now it takes less than 5 minutes at a time to thoughtfully read through them, & I do it 3 times a day because I want rapid change. I also acted on one of the tut.com messages & wrote out what I want for my life. The message was that you have to know what you want, defined in terms of the end result, but without defining how to get it. Also, that you have to detach yourself from the details & the timing. During those less than 5 minutes 3 times a day, I read my "I AM" statements & then what I wrote as my grand intent for my life.
I have a page full of "I AM" statements that I wrote on Friday. Today I'll start the 3 times a day with them, & let you know how it transforms my life. Just writing them transformed my mind. I'm (notice) finding it pretty easy to be aware of the uses of "I am" in my thoughts & words, to make the transition. If you catch me using it in the negative sense, please call me on it. I'll share a few of my statements with you here to give you an idea, but not many. Mine are highly personal, as yours should be. "I am Love." "I am Healthy." "I am Capable." "I am Courageous." "I am able to call upon all the power & energy I need, at will." "I am in touch with & master of my emotions." "I am in control of my thoughts & what I manifest." "I am compassionate toward myself & others." "I am an effective & creative time-manager." (That one was hard to word - I don't procrastinate, I want to be totally in the flow of doing what needs most to be done each day. But I currently struggle with feeling that I don't get enough done in a day, a week. That goes back to the one on compassion toward self, too. I don't want to be highly scheduled, want to go with the flow, but still accomplish all that needs to be done.) "I am spiritually whole." "I am balanced in my self, body, spirit, emotions, & life." "I am living in the flow of abundance, with plenty to share & give, & financial freedom." "I am living & working my passions, using my talents fully in my daily life." "I am awakening my talents & creativity." (I used the word "awakening" in order to make that a continual process.) "I am greatly blessed." "I am a playful, joyous child who knows how & when to play, incorporates play with work & life."
In all, I have 38 "I am" statements. By now you should know that I'm an achiever, very detailed & thorough, & that I have a great relationship with words. I used to say that I was an overachiever, & almost wrote that. Instead, I now have another "I am" statement to add. They're on the computer so I can add or subtract, alter as needed. What I've done is write statements to reinforce the positives I know about myself & manifest them even more fully, a secondary goal. The primary goal & statements are designed to manifest what I most want to improve about myself or bring about in myself & my life. Every time I find a lingering negative, like "overachiever," I need to counter it by adding an "I am" statement. That's a label that's been pinned on me, a subtle but harmful belief instilled in me over the years. It doesn't belong within me, yet that's where it lodged. Ironically, it's in there with the message that I tend to be lazy! We all carry these messages - from childhood, former relationships gone sour, jealous friends, etc. When you set your intent to only using "I am" in a positive way, these messages will begin to emerge, so having them on your computer is good. You can just add the new message you want to rescript. In fact, one of my "I am" statements is that I've been rescripted.
I don't like having to watch every word I say, thing I do. I don't like feeling like I have to be vigilant, can't relax, & I hate "shoulds." On the other hand, I'm finding that almost every day holds new excitement & life since I've begun taking charge of my self & my thoughts & intent. I've found ways to do that without feeling burdened by it. I laugh & forgive myself immediately when I slip, & take note of it. I rescript my thoughts on the spot - add the word "experiencing" or think through an old negative label & free myself from it. That freeing is such a thrill! And if I can do this without driving myself nuts, you can too. I haven't covered what came of following the tut.com message, & I won't here. You can ask me privately or it may come as another blog. It's highly personal & I've learned to set some boundaries - a huge achievement for me. But I will say, it starts with "I am manifesting:" & lists what I want the end result to be as far as what my life is like.
I have a page full of "I AM" statements that I wrote on Friday. Today I'll start the 3 times a day with them, & let you know how it transforms my life. Just writing them transformed my mind. I'm (notice) finding it pretty easy to be aware of the uses of "I am" in my thoughts & words, to make the transition. If you catch me using it in the negative sense, please call me on it. I'll share a few of my statements with you here to give you an idea, but not many. Mine are highly personal, as yours should be. "I am Love." "I am Healthy." "I am Capable." "I am Courageous." "I am able to call upon all the power & energy I need, at will." "I am in touch with & master of my emotions." "I am in control of my thoughts & what I manifest." "I am compassionate toward myself & others." "I am an effective & creative time-manager." (That one was hard to word - I don't procrastinate, I want to be totally in the flow of doing what needs most to be done each day. But I currently struggle with feeling that I don't get enough done in a day, a week. That goes back to the one on compassion toward self, too. I don't want to be highly scheduled, want to go with the flow, but still accomplish all that needs to be done.) "I am spiritually whole." "I am balanced in my self, body, spirit, emotions, & life." "I am living in the flow of abundance, with plenty to share & give, & financial freedom." "I am living & working my passions, using my talents fully in my daily life." "I am awakening my talents & creativity." (I used the word "awakening" in order to make that a continual process.) "I am greatly blessed." "I am a playful, joyous child who knows how & when to play, incorporates play with work & life."
In all, I have 38 "I am" statements. By now you should know that I'm an achiever, very detailed & thorough, & that I have a great relationship with words. I used to say that I was an overachiever, & almost wrote that. Instead, I now have another "I am" statement to add. They're on the computer so I can add or subtract, alter as needed. What I've done is write statements to reinforce the positives I know about myself & manifest them even more fully, a secondary goal. The primary goal & statements are designed to manifest what I most want to improve about myself or bring about in myself & my life. Every time I find a lingering negative, like "overachiever," I need to counter it by adding an "I am" statement. That's a label that's been pinned on me, a subtle but harmful belief instilled in me over the years. It doesn't belong within me, yet that's where it lodged. Ironically, it's in there with the message that I tend to be lazy! We all carry these messages - from childhood, former relationships gone sour, jealous friends, etc. When you set your intent to only using "I am" in a positive way, these messages will begin to emerge, so having them on your computer is good. You can just add the new message you want to rescript. In fact, one of my "I am" statements is that I've been rescripted.
I don't like having to watch every word I say, thing I do. I don't like feeling like I have to be vigilant, can't relax, & I hate "shoulds." On the other hand, I'm finding that almost every day holds new excitement & life since I've begun taking charge of my self & my thoughts & intent. I've found ways to do that without feeling burdened by it. I laugh & forgive myself immediately when I slip, & take note of it. I rescript my thoughts on the spot - add the word "experiencing" or think through an old negative label & free myself from it. That freeing is such a thrill! And if I can do this without driving myself nuts, you can too. I haven't covered what came of following the tut.com message, & I won't here. You can ask me privately or it may come as another blog. It's highly personal & I've learned to set some boundaries - a huge achievement for me. But I will say, it starts with "I am manifesting:" & lists what I want the end result to be as far as what my life is like.
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